Gedicht Hélène van Hoorn

The Sun

or: Doubt tending towards correct belief

Whenever you make me aware of my faults,
Doubt will arise.

Whenever you show me the nature of the sun,
Jealousy will arise.

Whenever you show me the human side of the sun,
Desirous attachment will arise.

Mountains of doubt, jealousy and attachment
prevent the sun to shine,
Its light disappears.

Whenever I see all you have given to me,
Whenever I see all you have changed in me,
Whenever I see all your tenderness
Whenever I experience your cutting through my conceptions,
Whenever I see all the glory you are,
I have to hide my face for the sun
Because you will burn me.

Whenever I see how ungrateful I am
Whenever I see how much I demand
Whenever I realize how my devotion to you
Serves only my own benefit
I am scared to death that you will leave me.

There is nothing to request than only your patience
Nothing to request than only your help
In overcoming these mental creations
To learn to see that the sun shines for everyone
To learn to see that the sun shines for me.

Please Rinpoche, stay with us
And please take more rest
Please help me to continue your work
May I one day be able to become what you are.

Hélène van Hoorn, 18 April 1986
 
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